A Little Lonely...

So, tonight, I'm a little lonely. Mainly because a lot has happened in the past 24 hours that are just abnormal. The older I get, the more I learn that life speeds up and we as adult humans are supposedly mature enough to keep up with it... Another thing I'm trying to learn is how to slow down when God wants us to rather than over-stressing about the issues at hand.

So, last night, one of the things I didn't mention was that I had been in a wreck. My parents and I went to a movie and my mom rearended a guy. No one was hurt, there was minimal damage, but it kinda freaked me out a little. I rearended someone about a year and a half ago and the lady went to the hospital. Ever since then, I've been searching for the brake pedal on the passenger side of a lot of the cars I've been in...especially my mom's. After we got everything taken care of with the police and the owners of the other vehicle, we went to see I Am Legend, which I do not recommend. My dad thought it was going to be about nuclear warfare... it was actually about viral zombies and some guy's plight to "cure" them... I nearly walked out of it.

Tonight, I was talking to my boyfriend and he told me that he has decided not to return to Emmanuel (my college) this coming semester. We met there last semester and neither of us really had the money to go in the first place. But I felt and still feel that I am supposed to be there for more spiritual reasons. I am not going to continue going to classes this semester, but I will be staying on campus thanks to a friend of mine covering the bill for the room we will be sharing. I plan to get a job and also hope to work on some things involving the school that I've never had the opportunity to really work on before. Meanwhile, David will be in ATL working and possibly going to school at ITT. So...we'll be two hours apart. The good news is that he plans to visit at least once every two weeks and stay with a friend over the weekends so he can hang out with me. This is going to be very hard on both of us because we're used to spending a lot of time together, however, we feel that this is the right choice for now, and I believe that God is testing us with this. I just wish that we could be closer in the process...but that's just me and being selfish as usual.

Lastly, due to the high cost of college these days, I owe a lot of money... so I'm a little concerned about that, obviously. I tend to worry too much about the things that I shouldn't worry about so much. I know that God will get me through this somehow. Can I just say that life in general sucks and that if it weren't for all the blessings I have received, I would have been dead long ago?

Father, God...please give me the strength to deal with what is to come. Give me the grace to accept the things that I need to, and above all, I ask for Your peace...