Well, a lot of exciting things have been happening to me lately. Then again, there have also been more hardships...but they will always be a part of life no matter what you go through.
The most exciting thing that has happened has been my recent engagement. That's right, ladies and gents, I am getting married in January 2009. We don't have a date yet. I'm very excited, very happy, and feeling beyond blessed because of it. Several weeks ago, back in September, I wrote Drew a letter. I had been going through a lot, and although I attempted to remain strong during those times, I wasn't fully ready to talk about everything that had happened. So in the letter, I just told explained that I had been through some things, and that I felt it was time for my life to move on from where it was. I had been feeling stuck and entrapped in this particular area of my life. For a long time, I have not really said what I wanted in a lot of situations. I have been taught to always care more about what everybody else wants, so it is very hard for me to go against that sometimes. So, when I realized the mistake I had made in not ever telling anyone what I myself wanted, I decided to make a change. I wrote to Drew and explained a good bit of this to him in so many words... I don't even know if I got the point across. I told him that I was ready to do something new with my life, and whaddya know, he wrote back and proposed!
Drew will be returning home on December 19th. After that, he will be going back on the 4th-10th of January. When he comes back that time, he will be on two weeks of leave before starting work. That is when we will be getting married. I'm so happy and excited :D.
7 days after I received his letter, I got some bad news. My friend and brother in Christ, Damian Biddle was killed in a car crash. Honestly, I've been through so much this year, I cannot even cry about it. But I am happy...I am still excited about things... and this has brought me to a new realization. I think I know what it means to be eternally happy outside of Heaven. Bad things will always happen. Life sucks, trash happens...we live on. But there comes a time in each person's life, when I believe God chooses to teach them to be happy despite their circumstances. I believe I am experiencing that now to an extent. There will still be times when I cry. There will still be days when I get upset and angry, and whatever...but through it all...I know that it's going to be worth it. All of it.
Ryo-kun, my precious smile... you have had a part in bringing my happiness about. It was all God, but God brought you to me. He has given you to me as a gift, and you have allowed yourself to be that gift. For that I thank you. I'd write another poem, but I don't have the words right now. Perhaps one day soon...before Christmas...when you get that mysterious gift with scraps in it...lol.
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