Finally Going Home

This is my last full week and weekend at home with my parents. The last week that I will be dependent on them for food, clothing, toiletries, and so on. I've had a charm life, and I know it. For those who don't know, Drew and I got married back in December. He had to go back to Chicago 4 days later, and it was arranged that I would remain with my parents for the time being until we had our own place.

Well, on June 5th, 2009, I will officially be in my new hometown. I am looking forward to it. I've wanted to leave Georgia for so long in an effort to make a life for myself. But there will be things and people that I will greatly miss.

I will miss the screened in front porch and all the butterflies and moths that I "rescued" from certain death when they were trapped by the screen.
I will miss some of the people.
I will miss the thick foliage.
And coonhounds.
Lifesprings. The people here.
I will miss Emmanuel...
And I will always miss the people I've lost here. People who stood strong and brave for me when I needed them the most. I'll see them again in Heaven.
I will miss...my growing up years...and the little things that trigger those memories.

I can't promise I won't change. And I refuse to be anyone's idealistic version of anything. I'm stubborn like that. I look forward to the challenges ahead, even though so many of them will cause pain. But is that not part of becoming the ultimate butterfly? The pain of becoming the beauty?

So in this last week, I am thinking a lot about things. I remember being little and Daddy putting me on the tailgate of his truck. "Jump, I'll catch you!" I loved that feeling of flying...the rush. Sheer trust in my heart. Breeze in my hair. Wind in my face. Full life ahead of me. And now here I am...on the brink of that full life. I know that I'm ready. But what I do from here on out will make or break everything. I hate that feeling. I'm no one special, and yet, here it is, up to me how my life turns out. I wonder how many people don't realize how much is riding on them before it's too late...? I think I'll leave everyone with that.

I am so blessed...so excited about a new life in a new city and new place. Looking forward to being able to do more with my life now...YES.